My Diary
What was on my mind before the Operation.
OPERATION CAHAYA BENA 1 1976. SOUTHERN THAILAND. FACING A BIGGER AND BATTLE-HARDENED ENEMY.
I knew the enemy we were going to face were not the same as the enemies we encountered in Sarawak in 1973 who were mainly ill-trained and under-armed. In most encounters, they wouldn't stand and fight. They would exchange fire and then ran away to save their own skin and to live another day.
Chin Peng and his men, on the other hand, were battle-hardened, well trained in the art of fighting and would stand and fight. Remember they fought the Japanese in WW 2 in Malaya through the Malayan People's Anti Japanese Army (MPAJA)? Whilst the North Kalimantan Communist Party were poorly armed, Chin Peng's men were armed to the teeth, so to say. Most of their weapons were supplied by the British forces during the WW 2 and weapons they had confiscated from our Forces in ambushes. Based on past encounters, they were good shots as well. By knowing the jungles like the back of their hands, they surely were formidable adversaries.
I was excited and concerned as well. The fighting spirit of my ancestors in me were raring to go. But I must ensure we were fully prepared in mind as well as physically.
Soldiering had been my dream even when I was still schooling. Fanned by the stories of great bravery of my forefathers told to me in the folklores, I wanted to emulate them and their prowess in the battle fields. I had been dreaming of leading my men in battles. This was another chance for me to realise my dream. But I knew at the back of my mind, I could be killed. To me Death should not be dwelt on and talked about. It is something that will come to everyone. Just leave your fate in God’s hand. He will decide when you should go. I held on to this principle in all my operations and contacts.
From the intelligence report given us, the enemy strength in each sectors entrusted to the Rifle Companies were staggering - more than our own. Some places, even double our strength. My usual Company strength was about 80 as about 30 to 40% were either on leave or on courses. I was happy in this operation I had full strength - 120 men. On top of that I brought all my Company Support weapons - the 60mm Mortars, GPMGs and the M79 grenade launchers. I was fully armed.
I waited for the day to come. I and my men were ready for the big Operation in Southern Thailand.